Got my first sociology assignment graded and got 90%!!! Yes I got 50 marks out of 60! I was totally blown away considering it was my first assignment! Now moving on to the next assignment which I want to be equally as good! Go me! hehehe

Marketing Administrator to Customer Service Administrator overnight!!!

Having really no choice but to return to work due to yet more financial hardship its probably not surprising that I have been shafted by yet another company. Overnight I lost the best job I've ever had and had to resign yet again to Customer Services. I'm not sure where I go wrong to be honest, I'm a hard working honest person but yet the moment things are in my grasp they seem to slip away. I don't ask for much but it appears currently I'm not able to have everything, I can't have a career and have a family. It appeared that the decision was made for me that if I wanted to continue helping to support my family that I would have to sacrifice my perfect job for it. But I'm slightly confused other women have been able to hold their jobs. Caroline came back after a year and although she had to change roles she was still able to work part time and if anything she cut her hours down and if you ask me she is doing a role that should actually be full time.

I guess I can understand Alison's reasons for declining me returning part time but it wasn't even discussed in my persistence. I still believe that I could support the department the way I did but over a shorter time but its like they couldn't even consider it and all I'm told is that its extremely busy in the department. I can't keep moaning about it but at the moment my job satisfaction is about -10.

My new role is simple, logical and apart from the odd moaner pretty easy to deal with. I'm glad I'm not dealing with incoming calls, not my cup of tea at all but I can see myself getting stuck with inbound calls as well eventually. Its hard a decision, I feel exactly like I knew I would. I haven't moved forward in my career, if anything I've moved backwards. I guess at present I just feel a little disheartened and like I've let myself down. It sounds stupid as obviously my children have to come first, especially while they are sooooo young but should I be feeling like I'm being punished.

It was hard seeing Nikki (the new marketing administrator) sitting in my place, doing my job but I've come to accept that its the way things have to be. I guess over time things will happen. It made me realise that I need to take charge of my future and need to start working towards my degree. I've started my GCSE English and I'm still studying for my A Level in Sociology. I'm looking into Access courses but I'm not sure if I'm doing it this year or next year. It depends on how I feel about work come September time!

I guess for the time being I have to lump as the saying goes but it doesn't mean I have to like it! If it wasn't for the location, the flexibility and the people I work with I wouldn't have returned at all!